Sunday, March 16, 2014


I haven't written much about yoga lately - well, I haven't written much lately.  

I finished Yoga Teacher Training a month ago.  After 6 months of hard work, busy weekends, and endless studying, I received a certificate that says I am qualified to teach yoga.

I'm not teaching yoga.  At least not yet.  But that doesn't mean I don't want to.

I struggled mentally with yoga teacher training.  I'm not at a size or fitness level I want to be at.  I struggled with comparing myself to the other yogis and yoginis in my class.  I love all of them dearly, but being in a class full of personal trainers and what I call "super yogis" was intimidating.  Every weekend I questioned what I was doing there - why did I think I could be a yoga teacher when I weighed more that I wanted and a headstand was not part of my regular practice?

Part of yoga is removing yourself from the comparison trap.  It's about being at peace with where you are at this very moment.  This is easier said than done.  But as teacher training progressed, I thought back on why I originally wanted to sign up and try to be a yoga teacher.  It always came back to how wonderful yoga makes me feel - mentally and physically - and the desire to share that with people.  As I came closer to graduating from YTT, I thought about the kind of teacher I wanted to be and what I wanted to leave my students with.  

I want to teach, but there is something holding me back - my size/weight/lack of a "yoga teacher" body.  I'm scared I'll go into a gym or studio, they'll take one look at me, and reject me.  I'm scared this will happen before they even get a chance to talk to me, to hear what I can offer yoga students, or to hear my philosophy on teaching yoga.

I don't necessarily want to wait until I have the perfect "yoga teacher" body to put myself out there, because odds are I'll never have that body.  I'm not sure what to do - do I face the real possibility of rejection due to my size, or do I put myself out there and give myself the possibility that I may be able to teach yoga?

Saturday, March 15, 2014

Coming out of hibernation

I LOVE everything snow and cold, but geez, it's been a long winter.

I feel like I've been hibernating since November.  I've stayed inside, I've not been very social, and have been in a general funk.  I blamed it on yoga teacher training and work taking up all of my time.  But the truth is, I haven't wanted to go out anywhere - the lure of staying cocooned in my house won out most times.

But something is slowly changing.  I don't know if it's Daylight Savings Time, the nicer weather, or because I am finally getting my food and exercise back on track, but I am slowly coming out of my self-imposed hibernation.

Today was a beautiful day - bright blue sky, temperatures in the 60's and just perfect.  I have a list of parks and places in Virginia I want to explore, so today I crossed one of those off my list.

I did about a 5 mile hike at Caledon State Park.  The best part about this hike was the trail led to the Potomac River.

Any day at the water is a good day!

Instead of turning around to go back, I followed the shoreline until it met up with another trail.

It was a perfect day and exactly what I needed.  There's something to be said for getting a dose of Vitamin D.

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

On Not Starting Over

Starting over is not fun.  It's not fun to think of where you've been and where you are now.  It's not fun  to wish you were back to a certain point in your life, when you looked better, ate better, moved better, and felt better. 

So I'm not going to look back.  I'm not going to start over.  I'm just going to start.

Starting means walking into the gym for the first time in months.  It means throwing out all the bad for me food that made its way into my house.  It means looking for the next Weight Watchers meeting and renewing my monthly pass.

Time to get started.

Monday, December 30, 2013

Year in Review

It's been months since I've written anything here.  I'd like to get back to posting regularly, hopefully within the next week or two once work has settled down.

2013 was a busy year!  It was the year of new - new job, new house, new routine.  It was the year I tool a leap way outside of my comfort zone and signed up for yoga teacher training.  This year I reconnected with old friends and family, traveled, ran a couple of races, and found out I was going to be an aunt for the 3rd time.


Alfie Boe at the Birchmere


Empire State
Birthday weekend in NYC


Enjoying warm days with friends


Spring in DC
Nike Women's Half Marathon


Adam Pascal at the Kennedy Center
Ramin Karimloo at the Birchmere

I might have a green thumb
Workin' it out


Meeting Zachary Levi after a performance of First Date in NYC



Discovering a new farmer's market
Hanging out downtown on a nice summer day


Miss Saigon at Signature Theater
Starting Yoga Teacher Training


Seeing Big Fish in NYC

Fall Hikes


If/Then at National Theatre
Hosting my family at Thanksgiving for the first time


Merry Christmas!

Family Time in Chicago

Monday, September 2, 2013

Back to Basics

It's no secret that I've been struggling this summer.  So, when I saw Brooke, a blogger I read regularly, post a Back to Basics challenge, I signed up immediately.  It's not necessarily a Weight Watchers thing, but more of a getting back to the basics of weight loss. 

For the challenge, we were asked to come up with some goals for September.  My goals are:
  1. Track every day.
  2. Stay within my daily and weekly Points Plus allowance.
  3. Go to 3 yoga classes a week.
I should probably add get more sleep to that list.

I'm excited about this challenge and hope that it will help me with the motivation that I've been lacking for the last 3 months.

Thursday, August 8, 2013


Life is beating me up.  Actually, that's a little dramatic.  Life has just been incredibly busy lately and it looks like it's going to be that way at least through Labor Day. 

Work is insanely busy right now and I've been working 10 plus hour days trying to get everything done.  It's a good thing I love my job and the company I work for.

I've worked out only once this week.  I haven't been to yoga in almost two weeks.  I haven't cooked in what seems like forever - mostly I've been eating out or eating cereal.  That's not so good for the wallet or my waistline.

I did manage to do a couple of fun things last weekend - Friday night I went downtown for First Friday.  The art galleries were open late and a lot of the restaurants had live music.  It was a beautiful night.

My mom was also in town last weekend for my cousin's wedding.  I haven't seen her since June so it was great to get to spend time together with her and my extended family.  What's funny was her comment when she first saw me - "You're so pale!"  I just laughed because it's so true!  Between moving and working a lot, I haven't had a lot of outdoor time this summer.  I've been trying to get to the beach for weeks, even if it's just for the day.  Maybe in a couple of weeks I can finally go.

Driving home from work I resolved to take back some of my time.  I need to get in daily workouts and I definitely need to get to yoga class.  Work will always be there but I need to get back some sort of work life balance.  Lately I've been coming home from work to just work some more.  Once I get in the habit of skipping work outs, it's that much harder to get back in the groove of things.

Sunday, July 14, 2013

It's been a crazy few weeks between starting a new job and moving.  I finally feel like I'm getting my feet back underneath me.

I was lucky enough to find a house to rent  - one with a big yard that needs to be mowed.  I don't have a lawn mower, so I spent this morning buying one and watching the nice sales associates put it together for me.

As I watched them, I kept telling myself that it would have been an epic disaster if I had tried to put it together.

I got the lawn mower home and went to work on the yard.

One of the main reasons I wanted to rent a house rather than an apartment was because I wanted a yard - I wanted to be able to garden and have the extra space.  For some reason, it just makes me feel more adult.

And I put up a shelf - I'm really not handy at all so the fact that this is still on the wall and somewhat level is a miracle.

Exercise last week was a wash - as in, nada, zip, zilch, zero.  I quit the gym when I moved and haven't gotten a membership anywhere else yet.  Also, my yoga studio is a little further away from home than it used to be so I just need to be on top of my schedule a little more. 

I feel the running bug coming back - I've been wanting to get out for runs and even tweeted that I should look for a 5k or 10k race to run.  I think Alexa and I are going to meet next week for a run  - it will be great to get out there and catch up with her.

To help get my exercise back on track, I am going to start 30 Day Shred tomorrow morning.  The workout is less than 30 minutes so I don't need to get up too much earlier to get the workout in.  I've heard good things about this DVD so I'm excited to try it.

So, that's where things stand right now.  My goal for the next week is to get my routine back and go to 3 yoga classes.  I'm ready for a great week!