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This week has been one for the books! Last weekend was the breakdown, then Tuesday we had an earthquake, followed up yesterday by the passing of Hurricane Irene. If it snows tomorrow, that's it, I'm done! :)

Lots of thinking has happened this week, which can be either good or bad. I guess it depends on if the thoughts are productive, if they're positive or negative, or if they just circle around in your head and have no outlet. I journal pretty frequently, in addition to using this blog as an outlet, so there's a place for my thoughts to go, but I'm not sure if they've been positive or productive.

I don't know if it's just me, but when I find myself struggling, I look for a new plan, a new way out. Even though I know what works, I still find myself looking for that easier way. Weight Watchers isn't doing it, let's count calories. If counting calories is too restrictive, let's try intuitive eating. Oops, Intuitive Eating isn't working because all I want to eat is bread and chocolate, so let's move on to the next plan. All of the sudden, Weight Watchers sounds good again (even though I stopped doing that for specific reasons). I know what works, I know how to reach my goals, but there's a mental block somewhere that seems to be preventing me from fulfilling them all of the way. I get so far and then the roadblock is erected. I guess that's where I find myself today.

I know I need to stop whining and just do what I know needs to be done. It's like my struggles with running lately - I need to put one foot in front of the other, take my thoughts captive, and put in the work. If my goals are really that important to me, then I need to be willing to do what's necessary to achieve them. If that means waking up at 5 am to run, or only ordering one glass of wine and a salad for dinner, then that's what it means. True, there will be physical and emotional roadblocks put up, but when you get past them, that's where you grow stronger and more sure of yourself.

Phew!

With that said, I'm planning on a successful upcoming week. I have run and gym sessions written out in my calendar, lunches are made, and dinners for the week are planned out. I'm setting myself up to succeed.